Fifteen

Not much in the way of thoughtful, literary posts around here for now. The brain cells are scrambled. Notes and jottings only.

1. The black cloud of depression and anxiety that descended three weeks ago has lifted quite suddenly. Hallelujah. I'm used to its cyclical visits but they still lay me low.
2. About a week ago I ran into an acquaintance, a fellow-sufferer. During our chat she put me onto this book which I later got out of the library. It's a gem. Very helpful. In one section the author echoes advice I received in an email from a blogfriend a while back (you know who you are). I'm grateful to both.
3. That morning I had almost stayed in bed under the duvet.
4. It's important to keep doing the next right thing.
5. Particularly when you don't want to or can't see the point.
6. Yoga is wonderful. I've always known it but this past week proved the matter beyond doubt. It shifts stuff on all sorts of levels.
7. Reading Susanne's (A Life in Wales) most recent post has helped.
8. Thinking once again about how many of the planet's concerns I can/ought to take on board. Worrying about them is only useful if I take action, however small.
9. I need to take some small actions. One at a time.
10. The sale of the flat is still up in the air. Fifty/fifty chance that it will go through.
11. The owner of the Death Watch Beetle house has come back to me. He says the problems are fixed. I've asked for written details. I'm dubious but it's unsettling. A bit like being rung up by the unsuitable lover you finally let go of but still hanker after ...
12. I will now probably rent a flat in the new place for six months and buy something once I am on the spot.
13. Walked out of a temp job last week after the first day. Never done that before. I'd love to describe the gory details but it's probably not advisable on the blog.
14. I need another temp job.
15. Autumn is the cat's favourite season. He tries to chase the falling leaves through the window.

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