Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Being seen

There have been a lot of self-portraits around recently. And they’ve been making me very uneasy – not that I disapprove of them, on the contrary. It’s been the thought of posting my own that has made me nervous.

Enough of fear and shyness. Here it is. I suspect I may take the photo down before too long though .....

Is it possible
to stand in the light
to hold still
to be seen?

Shall I be here
for once
without flinching
or averting my eyes?

Looking back at
with the same
calm, even

Is it possible
to hold the tension?


Blogger leslee said...

That's lovely. A good shy person's self-portrait - off-center, dimly lit so your face is only barely seen - and shy person's poem to boot. Nice!

I haven't even thought about doing this, though I did post photos of myself earlier this year (not self-portrait). Haven't had time to think straight.

1:54 pm  
Blogger herhimnbryn said...

Lovely Mary!
Don't take it back, it's great to see you.

2:24 pm  
Blogger Jean said...

These are absolutely lovely and haunting - both your photo and your words.

3:54 pm  
Blogger MB said...

In soft light, gently, barely visible. Lovely and shimmering. And words to go with...

7:03 pm  
Blogger LJ said...

This is a lovely photograph M. Really lovely.
And there can't be anything better, can there, than allowing ourselves to
hold still and be seen? And nothing harder, sometimes.
This poem spoke directly to me. Thank you for posting it.

8:27 pm  
Blogger Sonia said...

Beautiful image and beautiful words, Mary!
Elusive but meaningful!

10:41 pm  
Blogger Dave said...

Oops, I guess I missed it. Nuts.

11:54 pm  
Anonymous pohanginapete said...

I'll echo what the others have said, Mary. Lovely photo and words; complementary and beautifully reflective.

1:26 am  
Blogger g said...

And is it possible
to see the face
beyond the shadows
and feel the tension,
without smiling
with recognition?

2:19 am  
Blogger Dale said...

Oh, very beautiful.

2:52 am  
Anonymous Tania from Germany said...


2:55 pm  
Blogger Mary said...

Thank you all so much. I don't know why I was making such heavy weather of this, but I was, and your reception relieved a lot of anxiety.

Dave, the photo is still up ... browser problems?

5:08 pm  
Blogger Dave said...

Evidently so. I still can't see it.

1:05 am  
Blogger Dave said...

You were right - my browser was blocking blogger photos. I can see you now! Sort of. You do look a bit apprehensive about the whole thing (says the man with a porcupine in his gravatar).

1:18 am  
Blogger rdl said...

Brave girl, lovely. I like it!!!

2:42 am  
Blogger Endment said...

looking back ... with the same calm, even gaze You are not alone in that desire... Inside of many people who appear self-assured and brave is that same nervous unease... out of the gentle light is a wonderful photo and post!

3:20 am  
Blogger Sky said...

Oh, Mary! You resemble one of my dearest friends from college! The words you share describe how disquieting it is for you to share your beauty with all of us. Now your secret is out...you are indeed quite lovely! I am glad you were brave enough to take the plunge. :)

4:41 am  
Blogger Felicity said...

It's a beautiful photo! I understand exactly how you feel, I felt the same but it's a great exercise and it get easier!

7:15 am  
Blogger Mary said...

Dave: glad you broke through :-)!

Rdl, Endment, Sky: Thank you. The encouragement of friends definitely helps.

Felicity: Many thanks and welcome!

11:42 am  
Anonymous Natalie said...

I can only echo what they all said. I don't know why I missed visiting your blog before, Mary. You're going on my blogroll this week.

1:41 pm  
Blogger starnitesky said...

A wonderful picture - I love your words.

8:55 pm  
Blogger justin said...

I love the photo and your words, Mary. You do seem shy, as Leslie said. So am I.

12:20 am  
Blogger Mary said...

Natalie: Thank you! So nice to see you here.

Starnitesky: Thank you .....

Justin: I think a lot of bloggers are basically shy ....

6:38 am  
Anonymous beth said...

Oh Mary, so happy to see this lovely portrait (and you!) - and sorry it took me so long to get over here. Bravo for taking the plunge!

5:17 pm  
Blogger Mary said...

Beth: Thank you. Your encouragement helped!

7:41 am  
Blogger Stray said...

Is there some sort of medal going out for blogger bravery? A sort of cyber victoria cross ... there should be. I'll nominate you!

Real courage. And I find it a really powerful image - kind of draws me in and I find myself moving my head to try to glimpse a little more.

10:40 pm  
Blogger Mary said...

Stray: Thank you!

7:38 pm  

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